So yesterday and a little today I'm feeling a bit shitty. I was listening to my iPod and this song came up and it put a small on my face. I know its a gay song but I still like it and it makes me feel better. So here you go.

  
Click to listen to sample of the song.

Aquarius
(2000) Aqua
An Apple a Day

You know an apple a day
Won't keep the doctor away

Welcome to the cliches
welcome to the part
Where we wanna finish
What we can't start
Come and get me

Just don't miss the water
Until the well is dry
You got to learn walking
After you can fly
Come and get me

What goes in, will get out
What goes up, comes right down
We go up, we go up, we go up

You know an apple a day
Won't keep the doctor away
Were never taught what we teach
And won't practice what we preach
You know an apple a day
Won't keep my troubles away
Once bitten bye, bye
All the cliches is here to die

Just eat all the people
On your way up
Cause they will eat your heart out
On your way down
Come and get me

Start what you can't finish
Stick to what you can't
Life is here to help us
Get things out of hand
Come and get us

What goes in, will get out
What goes up, comes right down
We go up, we go up, we go up

You know an apple a day
Won't keep the doctor away
Were never taught what we teach
And won't practice what we preach
You know an apple a day
Won't keep my troubles away
Once bitten bye, bye
All the cliches is here to die

Cause you are what you're eating
Don't stick to what's true
You are what you're eating
Let it come as it came

We are what we are
What's build up will fall
Do what you want and be happy, be happy, be happy

You know an apple a day
Won't keep the doctor away
Were never taught what we teach
And won't practice what we preach
You know an apple a day
Won't keep my troubles away
Once bitten bye, bye
All the cliches is here to die

'Cause you are what you're eating
Don't stick to what's true
You are what you're eating
Let it come as it came

We are what we are
What's build up will fall
Do what you want and be happy

I have a few friends here and there. Some better then others, some new, some old. But there has been one person, that I am very happy I can call my friend, that has been very supportive and caring towards me. He has listened to me and not judged me and made me think more about myself and my life then others.

None but a few of my friends know of him and the ones that do know very little. I have to say I like it this way for a couple of reasons:

1. He is like my personal guide and is a non bias party in my life I feel like I can turn to since he is not in direct contact with others in my life.

2. We both come from completely different background and times and some people in my life tend to be judgmental and I would rather not hear any of there judgements.

I've never wrote about him just because our friendship at the moement seems pure in a way where no others seem to have touched it or tampered with it and I don't want that to happen.

I do feel I owe him something.. maybe this blog post is the least I can do but I want him to know that I am thankful to have him there in my life and that I appreciate him very much.

I think if everyone where to have a friend like him the world would be a much nicer place and maybe people would stop to think a little more.

So there it is.. to my friend who I am very lucky to call him my friend.

PS: The picture in this post is something only known between me and my friend.. just in case you where wondering.

So now that I have a second job my schedule starting to get a bit full. Ok so maybe its not all that bad but for me this is a lot so if you want some of my time make sure you let me know soon. lol

So here's what it looks like.

This weekend I moved out of my apartment on a temporary bases so that I could have my bathroom and closet remodeled. I'm currently staying at my fathers house. He is on vacation with my sister and stepmother so I have the house all to myself.

I do miss my apartment. I don't have my computer so I'm using my dads. He only has DSL so the Internet is much slower then what I'm used to. He has no cable or FiOS so I don't bother watching any TV.

It's like I've gone back in time. I've worked pretty hard to get place set up nice with Wireless Internet (FiOS), FiOS TV with an LCD HDTV, my computer with Windows Vista, and my Slim PS2 (even though I'm still working to get an Xbox 360).

So I have to say I've spoiled myself quite a bit and now that I'm staying at my dads I'm going thru withdraw. I just hope everything goes smooth so I can be back in my apartment ASAP.

Above is a picture I took of them starting the demo. As you may notice (or not) they torn down the wall that separated the bathroom/closet from the main bedroom. Also in this picture they have started to tear down the ceiling in the bathroom. This picture is already out dated since the last time both the bathroom and closet floors were gone (only the exposed support beams showing and dirt) and everything was taken out of the bathroom including the walls so it only looked like a frame. 

I just want to go home... :(

If you don't know already I currently work at a media company in Tampa, FL. A while back I was a bit bored so I started to apply some retail stores to fill up my weekend and hopefully my pockets.

I applied at all the places I would like to work such as Best Buy, EB Games, CompUSA, Circuit City (I used to work there), and The Apple Store. Well nothing really came of it I think it was due to the fact that I was over qualified and not many people where hiring at the moment. So I forgot about it and continued on.

Well last week out of the blue I was contacted by The Apple Store and they asked me to come in to an interview. This was pretty exciting I admire there retail strategy and have always wanted an opportunity to learn more about Apple and their products.

So a week has passed and after the interview and a very deep background check they called me and offered me a part-time position as a Mac Specialist. I'm pretty happy and cant wait to learn more about Apple's product line.

The crazy thing is even though I know a ton about Apple and there products because I read so much tech new, blogs, etc (I even have a copy of the Apple Human User Interface Guidelines) I don't even own a Mac. I did use a Mac all through collage and I have had three different iPods (Shuffle G1, iPod Photo 60GB, and Shuffle G2). But I think my experience with computers, design, and the fact that I am up-to-date with everything having to do with tech really helped me get this job.

I really look forward to learning more and seeing what I can bring to the team. So wish me luck!

BTW this has no impact on how I view Microsoft and there products. My opinions are based on my experiences and not on hype. I still love Microsoft and there products (most of them) and I STILL WANT AN XBOX 360. :)

This afternoon I was rather surprised when I opened up my inbox. I had received an email from an old friend that I haven't seen in quite a while. I saw him once in the last year (maybe this year can't remember) but it was acquired and I could tell by this body language that he was a bit wearied out.

We met about two years ago.. I think we met off of some site I don't know which. But we hit it off great. We both loved music, he is a music freak. We just "clicked" we had great conversations and were always laughing.

I did think he was a bit introverted and I seemed to be the wild one but over time he really started to grab life by the horns.

I remember at that time I was going to go up to New York to visit my Step Father and I honestly did want to go alone because I would be bored wondering the streets by my lonesome. So one day at a restaurant he was talking about how much he wanted to go to New York and I said "Well just come with me.. it will be fun" and he said "Sure!". I know we had a great time in the city.

But are all of that things started to go down hill. Little by little our friendship started to crumble. I'm not going to get into it but I know it was hard for him and I was started to feel cornered and very uncomfortable.

It ended up getting to the point where I had to sever myself from him. It was for the best I was getting too stressed out and he was feeling... well I'm not sure I just know it wasn't good.

Either I was never mad at him more upset at the fact that I knew I had to end the friendship. He had a great impact on my life I would even go so far to say if things would have said good he could have been my best friend. Ending that friendship was one of the hardest's things I have had to do. I cried for days after it was said and done and never thought I would find someone that could really mesh with me so well and be that great friend.

I will say I'm quite luck since then I have picked up the pieces and moved on. I have really lived life. I've gone from living with my father and having no friends or relationships to living with 4 boys and having roommates, then having a boyfriend for almost ten months, then a bad breakup, then another boyfriend, then moving out on my own and having my own place, to another break up, to now meeting my good friend Chris which I love hanging out with.

A lot of things have come and gone and I've had the good and the bad and even then the worse. But I think I'm starting to come full circle and am growing as a person.

So I sit here with a heavy decision to make. Do I ignore his email and continue on in my life or do I respond and try to mend things and maybe even give friendship another try.

I'm torn. Part of me misses the good times we had but the other part is scared that I my be putting myself back into a bad situation. I know I have grown and learned but has he and does he see why I had to do what I did and can he handle that?

I don't I think I will think about this for a little while and then go forward with a decision.

I can tell you right now I bet he is reading this. I just hope he knows that I have always cared for him as a friend even when things went bad. This has never changed. We were best buds and in my mind he will always stay that way.

It seems this is where I have to make my move.

If you didn't know I've been home for the past 2 days. I'm a bit sick and in some pain. I'm not going to go into any deals just know its not that great over here.

Over the past few days I've been feeling more and more alone. Maybe its because I have to be suck here at my house or something else. I have talked to a couple of my friends and for the most part I seem to be of little interest to them.

I have a friend and when I called he seemed almost bothered that I called. He dominated the conversation and walk talking entirely about himself and his problems. I guess that's fine.. I know he is really stressed out about his job and school but I felt a bit left out as he didn't seem to have much interest in what was going on with me. I even asked him a small favor and he brushed me off the phone.

He ended up calling me later on in the day but by that point I honestly didn't even want to talk to him. I knew he wanted to vent some more and I listened and didn't say a word. I tried to tell him about something that was going on in my life but he steered the conversation right back to himself. Of course I had asked him earlier about a small favor but he didn't seem interested in what I had to say or even remember what I said for that matter so I thought "why even bother asking him". 

Then I just had to say "Ok good bye" I didn't even say "Well I'll talk to you later" because honest I didn't want to. I was really put off by the face that I have not really hung out with him in about 3 weeks and this weekend he is going off somewhere with his family just to get away. That's all great but of course it doesn't matter that I would like to get together with him and do something also. Well.. who cares.. I shouldn't.

My other friend is going thru some crap with someone that he is seeing and he need some help too. So as usual I did help him thru it and later he seemed mildly interested in what I had to say.

On top of all this my mother is out of town on vacation for God knows how long and my father is out of the country.

It's funny that when I was at the Doctors office he asked "Don't you have someone to help you out with all this while your ill?" and after thinking about it I responded "No, its just me". Just like it has always been, besides my family, I've only really been able to depend on myself and no one else. I know it not the greatest thing but at least I know I can always count on myself.

I find it when you do count on others they always disappoint you when you need them. So like I told the Doctor.. It's just me.. no one else.

Well I guess that's better then no one.

VMware Fusion Beta is now available for download. I have to say this is one of the bad ass piece of software. With there new Fusion feature you can run windows programs directly on your Mac desktop. No more opening a window running Windows and then opening up your program with in the limited space of the window.

Now you can have your Mac programs side by side with your windows programs as if there part of OSX. You have to see the video below to believe it.

Mac OSX and Windows in harmony.. Kind of weird but awesome none the less.

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Zune Corps is hosting a T-Shirt submission contest where you can win a new Pink Zune. Apparently they are trying to raise money to pay there server costs which is very understandable.

Of course one of the stipulations is that once submitted they own all rights to the design and such.. which is something that a designer like me hates. But I figured what the hell if I win I'll get my name out there and a new Zune so something good has to come of it.

 
Up close detail.

All work on this t-shirt is original. The Zunes on the T where all recreated (by me) from scratch in Photoshop.

I don't know about you but I would buy this t-shirt.. even thought I maybe a bias. :P

Let me know what you think.

 About a month or so ago I did a logo for LiveSide.net and they really liked it. They are looking to soon update there site to reflect the new logo and maybe even update the theme of the site to reflect the new look the the Windows Live products.

So I pulled out the old Photoshop and wanted to do an updated logo of the one that I did with them reflect the theme of the new Windows Live products and give it a more polished look.

I came up with 2 slightly different logo designs. One adds a glossy button look to the logo and the other shares the same them as Aero Glass on Vista.

Below you'll see the new updated logos and the old logos so you can see the evolution of them. Click on the logos to enlarge them (so you can see more detail).

Original LiveSide Logo
 
My New Liveside Logo Wave 1 (1st attempt)
 
Updated LiveSide Logo Glossy Wave 2
 
Updated LiveSide Logo Glass Wave 2

Its not a huge difference but it's a nice little update that makes it look more professional. You can look forward to seeing this on LiveSide.net sometime in the future.

Apparently red is all the rage this summer. Engadget.com is reporting that come June 10th you'll be able to pick up a red Zune exclusively at Target or Amazon.

I'm really digging the red I think its pretty bad ass.

why? 
When I think everything is ok you come back into my head..

why? 
Do I miss you still..

why? 
Can't you just disappear..

go away..

be erased from my memory..

What is it that I can't move on and not want you close to me..

I don't get it..

It wasn't great at all..

but parts where..

maybe..

I don't know

why?
Are you still here..

here in my mind..

here in my heart.

Go away..

please..

let me go..

I beg..

why did you leave..

In an interview with Microsoft's Robbie Bach told that  just over  million Zunes have been sold. That's great news, especially since Zune has only been on the market since November 2006. But still it is only 1% of the 100 million iPods sold. From what I read about a month ago Zune is holding as 2nd most popular MP3 player of course with the iPod being number 1.

So 1 million sold, growing in popularity, and with only one model to choose from. Well I have to say that's pretty good. And you know what they say.. "The Proof is in the Pudding" so here you go.

This Saturday I decided to stop by Circuit City and just browse. I don't know what it is when I walk into a tech store but I feel like a gitty school girl that just had the handsome jock of the football team slip his hand up her dress.

As I was there I saw a girl looking at the the Zune display and to my enjoyment she picked one up and was off to the register to buy it. Me being the random person I am decided to go up to her and do a mini interview.

So I approached her and said hello and told her my name. After that I told her I had noticed she had brought a Zune and asked if she would mind answering some questions for me. So I asked her the following questions and here are answers.

1. What made you decided to buy a Zune?
- Well I had an iPod Nano and didn't like the fact that the screen was so small so I decided to return it. My boyfriend was the one that told me I should get a Zune instead.

2. Do you have a lot of music on your computer? Do you plan to purchase music from the Zune marketplace or sign up for a subscription?
-Yes, I have tons of music on my computer. I haven't looking into the subscription but it sounds pretty cool.

3. What are some of the features you like about Zune?
- Well I like the big screen and the fact that I can watch videos on it, with the iPod Nano you can't watch videos. Also its on Sale and its only $199 compared to the Nano which is $250.

4. Did you know you can share your music with other friends/people who have Zunes wirelessly?
-Yes! I did see something about that on the commercial I thought that was really neat.

5. Did you know you that you can now get the Zune in Pink?
-Yes, I did see that it comes in Pink but they didn't have any here.

6. Can I take a picture with you of your Zune?
- (laughs) Sure!

So there you go! Another happy Zune customer! All I can say now is Welcome to the Social, girl I bothered at Circuit City. I hope to join you soon!

I should so be a Zune rep. :)

I don't know if you have noticed but on the right side I now have a new "Wish List". These are all things I am working towards getting and I hope I can accomplish them. Now these are all material things there are other things I wish to accomplish but I thought I would illustrate some of the things I am looking forward to getting.